So you want to know a secret.. it's a big one.. you'd never guess..
losing weight is f**king hard.
Oh, you mean you already knew that? I suppose you're right. It's not really a secret to anyone that's attempted it.
You know what makes it harder? Doing it alone. Of course I had some struggles while I was working with my personal trainer, but even when I did I knew that I could look forward to our workouts together and I just knew that I would get my butt kicked and she would set me straight. When we were finishing up our sessions, we talked about my motivation and how I was going to move forward. I laughed and thought "I'll be just fine on my own!" I was so wrong. It's time to get really real here.
My first struggle was when I went to Dallas. I threw every rule I had for myself out the window. I ate, I drank, and I didn't workout. This was after two full months of working out, eating mostly clean, and really emulating a new lifestyle change. What happened? I got so sick. The last two days of my trip I was completely miserable. My body was screaming at me to stop. It didn't get better when I got home either. I was tired, sick, and drained. I went an entire week without working out and when I finally got back in it was hell.
So there I was back in the gym and I decided to get into Body Pump classes because I knew they are great for strength training and they are awesome. However, when there wasn't a Body Pump class I wasn't motivated to go to the gym, so now I was only going 3-4 times a week instead of 6. I knew in my head this wasn't good enough for me, but I didn't care. I was going to the gym at least.
What about eating clean? Most people say you should try to follow 80-20. Be perfect 80% of the time, and indulge here and there 20% of the time. I would say I've been doing about 50-50. Not good enough, nope not even close. I plan and pack and at work during the week.. I am golden. It's nights and weekends that kill me. Oh I'll just have some ice cream tonight. I think I'll just eat whatever I want at Cheesecake Factory. The problem is that I always feel like crap afterwards. My body tells me not to do it and I don't listen.
So what I'm trying to say is that yesterday was a bit of a wake-up call for me. I stepped on the scale and it had gone up instead of down (I know, duh). So I made a decision. It's time to get my head back in the game. I know why I want this. I want to be healthy, I want to feel good about myself, I want to walk into a store and not be afraid to try things on. I know that I have the motivation to do this. It's time to go to work.
Here's my plan for this week.. stick to my meal plan, get in six great workouts, and constantly tell myself I can do it. Because I can and I will.
60 comments:
Get it girl. Hey, kudos to you for jumping back into it instead of making excuses! That is awesome!!
You've got this! I know how you are feeling. I started my "wedding diet" a few months ago and after failing miserably at it, I'm back on the diet starting today. WE can do this!!
Are you sure you didn't read my mind before you wrote this? Because I was exactly in your shoes 2 weeks ago. This yo-yo diet disaster. This past weekend and this week have been great. I'm still working on the 80/20 ratio. Which is definitely a lifestyle change that's hard to do all at once, but I FEEL so much better! I have no doubt that you can do this! And I'm excited to watch you do it as I do it too! So much easier sometimes to see someone who's going through it RIGHT NOW instead of someone who's already been through it!
So proud of you for getting back up and at it. It's hard to find that motivation internally sometimes! I think it's so great that you're finding the foods that make you feel good and those that make you feel shitty. I have had enough of those "ew, I feel AWFUL" experiences and now I don't even crave those foods. Keep up your good work!! xx
You are not alone in your struggle. I felt like I was reading my own blog post!! you are so motivating to me! You've made so much progress so far so just remember that. I'm good at talking about it but not good at following my own advice so when someone else says it, it's more of a reality check, In my opinion. You can do it! Just know somewhere in Hawaii a blogger is working out with you!! :)))
you are not alone. i'm right there with ya, chickadee. love you.
Good luck!!! You will do just fine. Motivation is the hardest thing, ever. But, you can do it!!! :) :)
You are doing so mucgh better than almost all of this!1 You look great and are gonna lose as much weight as you want! Do not stress it!
I'm in the same boat as you - Was doing great, lost almost 25 lbs. Then I went to Vegas, and started a new job and now I'm back up 5 lbs. I need to get back at it the way I was before I went on vacation.
The motivation from other bloggers has definitely been a huge help in my journey!
Seriously, I am so impressed with ALL of your progress! When you showed the side by side of your pretty face I was amazed! Good for you for getting back into it :)
You've come so far! You can do this. Have you tried cooking larger portions of health meals and then using it throughout the week that way when you are to tired to cook its already there for you and the temptation to eat 'junk' isn't as easy?
I am in the same boat as you! I moved and do not have access to the unlimited fitness classes like I did before. I have hit a slump! Good luck this week! I know you can do it!
Girl you are inspirational!!!! Love this, keep it up!
Good luck girl! I just started to eat a lot better, and usually I run about a mile every day. I'm recovering from a running injury which can be so not motivating, but it's just about finding something that motivates you do to well. You're gonna do great!
xo, Maria
you've got this girl! staying motivated on your own is hard. do you have a workout buddy that you could go to the gym with? maybe not do the same workouts, but to at least hold you accountable?! helps a ton !!
You can do it!!! I always think "If that person got up off the couch and did it, then I can, too!" You go gurllll!
ugh, it's so hard. I keep telling myself today i'll start. The gym and working out is the hardest part for me. You can do it!
-Lauren
You can do it love!
You go girl!!! You can do it!! And this is a motivation for me...I'd like to get healthier and get in better shape and I'm the only one that can do it, so I just need to do it!
WORK IT! OWN IT! YOU CAN DO IT!
I'm trying this whole thing too. It sucks. It's hard. I haven't done anything today. Good luck to you!
Sam
The Kitchen is My Dance Floor
Girl you are definitely not alone in this struggle. Thanks for sharing this side of your weight loss journey. While your success has been inspiring and motivational knowing that you struggle is also helpful because it lets me know that I am not the only one which is a relief.
The important thing I took away from this post is that you got back on track before you took too much time off from the healthy lifestyle. Sure you may not have jumped right back in where you left off but it was better than nothing. I on the other hand have fallen off that wagon and not gotten back on yet. That's the hardest part, getting back to it after doing everything wrong. Good for you for not letting the hardest part hold you down!
You got this!
There will be these times..I gained 30 of the 60 I lost back after 5 years of keeping it off, but it is just like riding a bike..you know what to do and the fact that you are getting back on track is the first step. You go girl..and you still look amazing :)
girl you can DOOOO THIS!! Ive been following along on your progress and you are seriously such an inspiration.
I have a hard time getting motivated as well....I think its just so easy to say "meh ill go tomorrow, or meh ill go in a few hours" and by that time I just feel crappy, you know?!
im scared of body pump!! i see the classes and everyone is so hardcore and im just like HAAAY..haha! Try zumba if you havent already! such a fantastic workout and it flies by burning SO many cals and its fun to dance to Drop it Low hahah
you can do this Sami!! Keep positive because you are doing amazing
xoxoxo
you can do it girl!! You've gotten this far!!
You can doooooo it!!!! Look at the peekchurs of your face and how skinny mini face it is now!!!
I went through the same thing last week and felt HORRIBLE! It's funny how our bodies know more than we give them credit for.
Good luck this week. The first week back at it is always the hardest :)
I completely know what you are going through. It sucks to work so hard and for so long and all of that can be undone in a few weekends. No worries girl you've got this!
~Krista
www.kristiesbluejeans.blogspot.com
You can do it!! Once you get back into the habit it should get easier :)
We are in the EXACT same place right now! I cheated so badly last week, and now I have a serious lack of motivation to work out. BUT, I've got my meals portioned and ready to go for the week, and so this week is going to be better!
girlll i am with you! why does it take weeks to lose the pounds it only takes a few days to put on!?? ughh!! my problem is that i am so ready to indulge in the instant gratification of that brownie or piece of cake - immediately afterward I'm all - UGH, why'd I do it? and then a month from then I haven't lost any weight because I've been too busy indulging in all these cheats.
But, I'm going to be on a cruise around turkey in a month so I am doing whatever it takes to lose at least 8 pounds (if only I'd been this motivated a few months ago I'd feel really good about this upcoming cruise!)
Oh my gosh I can't even begin to explain to you how much I am in your boat!
I did so freaking good before my wedding because well, nothing is more nerve racking than standing in front of hundreds of people taking your vows and looking like crap so I kept using that to get my ass in gear.
NOW that the wedding is over and I have nothing to "work for" I can not get myself back in gear. I overly love food more than anything and I hate that it goes to my ass everytime.
Keep up your hard work, something is always better than nothing and it takes time to get ourselves in to a routine and to keep up with it!
You'll find it again, but until than 3-4 times a week is GREAT start
Good Luck girl! I'm rooting for you! :)
YOU CAN DO IT! There is NOTHING easy about trying to lose weight, but getting back on the wagon when you fall off is the key. I'm always so hard on myself when I "cheat" but I can't beat myself up, I just need to keep going and move on! I'm doing a post about my weight loss this week too! I'm totally striving for the 80-20, which is NOT easy! You got this girl!
Love your honesty. I could have written this post. I've been terrible about my eating habits and only okay on my working out. I've been using my unemployment as an excuse (can't afford healthy food), but it really isn't a good one. Time to get back at it. I can do it, and so can you!
Good luck and I totally understand where you are at. Up until about 2 months ago, I was going to the gym 5-6 times a week and eating super well. Then I was thrown a life curveball and didn't completely undo everything BUT I haven't been working out consistently. I haven't been eating very well. But, I want to lose the weight to feel better. SO I am trying to get myself back into the right frame of mind.
We're all there with you, Sami. I keep doing the same thing to myself and it totally sucks! Just remember how good you feel when you DO take care of yourself and how confident you are with yourself. You keep on going, girl!!! xxo
I struggle with being motivated to go to the gym almost every day. It's getting there that's the hardest part. Once you're there you're golden!! Eating clean is another HUGE struggle for me. I love food. And I crave it. It's hard, but we can do it!!
SAMANTHA! First I need you to do a tutorial on your little poof in that first picture cause I need it. and second of all I am SO proud of you! You are doing an amazing job. We all have slip ups. If you didn't, you'd be a pissy bitch.
You got this, girl!! Everyone has their ups and downs, and what's best is to chalk it up as a down and just move on. Which I know you are. Losing all of the baby weight I gained happened 18 months after I had the baby, while every other new mom I saw was back into their pre-preg clothes in three months. It was a slow, torturous process. I totally understand how you feel. Take it one step at a time and don't forget to remind yourself of how awesome you are!! Because you are!!!
One thing that gets me Is working out through the slumps.. it was good you were still at least going now you can kick it up again. Also, maybe be on the look out for groupons in your area for fitness classes. I see them all the time!
You've got this gurlie! Every time I travel all eating right and exercising goes out the window and I always feel so bloated and that first workout when you get back into it is rough...
Just keep your eye on the prize and don't be afraid to indulge when away on vacay or when celebrating with friends ;)
good luck! just remember a week or two (or more) of bad behavior won't throw everything off. just move on from the past few weeks and get back into your routine. you can do it! :)
-- jackie @ jade and oak
Sami, you are so honest. I love it. I wish you lived in Memphis and we could workout together! Keep trying girl!
Girl tell me about it!! I have been STRUGGLING lately! I was just telling Hallie & Mal today that I feel like I'm fronting with this linkup! I really like doing HIIT workouts or Zumba because these days if I'm at the gym on my own I feel lost!
I got back from my honeymoon a week ago and made the mistake of weighing myself. I had gained 5+ lbs since the wedding. I had worked so hard to look great at the wedding and I don't want it to all go out the window just because that one event is over.
Stay focused and the weight will come off!
Honey, I am in the same boat as you. You got it!!
As hard as it is, I know that you can do this! Keep going girl!
--Laura
I feel like I wrote this post! Seriously I can totally relate! It's sooo easy being good during the day and then the weekend rolls around and it's a food party in my mouth that has got to stop!
But seriously.. Keep up the hard work! You've been doing so great! You got this!
I completely know what you mean - "cheating" a little always turns into "cheating" a lot. proud of you for getting back on the wagon! you go glen coco! :)
You SO got this, girl. 6 days a week is amazing no matter how you look at it esp for two months straight. maybe this was the little break you needed to get your mojo back. I hope you're proud of yourself regardless of what the scale says. xo
It is SO much easier to give into the not working out and eating like crap. As in this morning when I ONCE AGAIN turned off the early work out alarm! But you are in the right place where you KNOW you want this, so you'll get it! I agree with the others, maybe you needed a break and you'll power through and see some AMAZING results soon! You are awesome and keep it up :)
It is SO much easier to give into the not working out and eating like crap. As in this morning when I ONCE AGAIN turned off the early work out alarm! But you are in the right place where you KNOW you want this, so you'll get it! I agree with the others, maybe you needed a break and you'll power through and see some AMAZING results soon! You are awesome and keep it up :)
It happens to everyone, pretty. You've been so motivated and intentional so don't get too down on yourself. You now know how your body will fight you and you know your head is in the right place.
Keep it up and you'll be amazed how quickly your "lifestyle" has been altered for the better!
xx
Good luck!! If you have a Curves gym near you, you should seriously try there! Its only a 30min workout, just for ladies (so no need to put a face on for the hotties before gym!) it working with hydrolic resistance so no weights meaning you won't walk out there looking like bloody arnold swartchanigger! Also they sell delicious shakes and offer dietry courses with incentives and its seriously just a whole lot of fun!! They work a lot with charity events and breast cancer in particular! I used to work for one here in South Africa and absolutely LOVED it! <3
Best of luck to you, but just know that you're gorgeous anyway!
New follower! Hope you document progress xx
www.bohemianmuses.blogspot.com
I'm cheering you on! ...while I need to be doing the same thing you're doing. I think 90% of women go through the same thing as you every single day. Those 10% who can eat whatever they want and look great...let's not talk about them. Ha!
Found your blog through the NOtivation link up and can relate to this post on so many levels! I've been on a roller coaster of health/fitness ups and downs since having my son well over a year ago!
Sounds like you have the right attitude and mind set to get things done this time around! Lucky for us, there's a ton of inspiration and motivation here in blog land from so many women who are going through the same struggles.
Looking forward to following your blog and seeing your progress! You got this!! --Bevin
Good luck, girl. You can do it! You know what they say- nothing worth having ever comes easy. It is an annoying saying, but it is also very true. :)
The Grass Skirt
You can do it, girl! You've been doing so well and you can definitely see that! I completely understand and GET how hard it can be - I struggle with it daily, too. I have a goal in my mind for what I want to achieve - and I want to, I do! But it's hard - and real life takes over. I'm struggling to make it a lifestyle change, something positive - not something I'm forcing onto myself, kicking and screaming.
I've considered wanting to create a more private space where people who wanted to participate could work together to keep themselves accountable and motivate each other.